Plant Lux
My online life of about 18 years has lead here to this page, to this sentence. This is where I am for now. This page is me.
An it harm none, do what thou wilt
I truly believe that people should be left to their devices, to do the things that bring them closer to their true self. Bring yourself joy and comfort, always... within moderation. We need some heartache, melancholy and self loathing. It's important to feel these too but also within moderation. Life is a balance of the good and bad while remembering what is in between. Do what you will as long as you are not hurting another person and this includes your own self.Sometimes others do not realize the harm they are putting on someone else but will also refuse that they are harming someone due to their own negligence and naivety. It's important to try to be better and understanding to others when criticized.
Self expression saved me
Over the many years online, I have come closer to myself. For a long, long time I didn't have an identity of my own. I felt I would forever be taking pieces from other people. I am thankful that wasn't the case. Here, my name is Lux and Plant. I'm neurodivergent, transmasc and I make art and express myself as much as I am able to. Art is my emotional release in every form.I love gaming. You'll find me playing FFXIV, friendslops, Helldivers, Balders Gate, VRChat and more but I do tend to cycle between what I am enjoying at the time. VRC and FFXIV are my go to as I run a Free Company in XIV and enjoy being social on VRC.
Forest
I am a swirling potion of expression, regrets, emotion, love, hatred, guilt, fear, passion, excitement, colors, topics, art. I am a transmasc person that is very painfully undiagnosed. I'm getting older, I'm unsure what I need from life. I wish I was rich so I could help my friends and myself. I need surgery, I need medical care, I need a home to live in that's mine. I am grateful for my life and what I am given, I struggle with working harder to give myself what I deserve.
I am so very small
I disappear for weeks at a time, I disconnect from people and I crawl into a void where all time slows but quickens at the same time. My heart needs closeness but my soul needs reprieve. I wish I wasn't this way. I know peoples' lives don't bend and contort to fill the needs of my own. I expect gaps to form in relationships. Some friendships can fill those gaps instantly, some cannot. That is part of the everflowing waves of life.
My life
My Tumblr and Instagram are a more direct view into my life. I'm a very open person, perhaps one day this will hurt me. Today is not that day so my book remains open for those who wish to turn the pages.